I’m always so lonely, frustrated, and angry And I never know if it’s my fault Or if it’s just my brain working fucking wrong Cause I have got problems that I cannot withhold Cause I have got diseases that I cannot control
And my feelings are at the mercy of my chemical imbalances And I’m trapped inside the torture of living with bipolar disorder
And I always hate myself more than I hate anyone else I’ll always hate myself before I hate anyone else Cause I know I have earned it From years and years of treating myself like shit
And I want to believe that it’s not my fault And I want to believe that I can live a fulfilling life But I might not I might not