i just wanted to be the face of neutrality i never wanted to leave.
sinking in, striking out shifty tongue, broken ideas
the machine inside me spits out numbers violently, vomits expletives unnecessarily. it won't let me be.
i want to see the birds and the bees won't always be permanent.
to everybody that i love today: i want to feel ashamed.
i can see the birds and the bees will always be permanent and if the world teams up on me, i guess..
i only want you around when you're not around. but now you're gone, brushing your teeth with a cigarette. i only want you around when you're not around. but now you're gone, choking on a cigarette.
i can see the birds and the bees. i want to feel affirmative. i believe in what you believe-- i'm pouring under, spilling under, i'm down on my knees.