I’m heading down a path of self destruction. There’s no stopping. I’m full speed ahead. I’m far from sober and it’s nights like these that I fell like I’m better off dead. For what it’s worth I’ll say, it’s not the answer, but the bottle’s got the best of me. For what it’s worth I’ll say, it’s not the answer, but the drugs have got the rest of me. I never wanted to be saved by anyone. I’ll bring you down with me, just like everyone else. I told you I would never care for anyone. So hide your heart from me, I’ll tear you apart. And I never expected that I’d ever become what I truly hated but I can’t just use the bottle as a reason for the fact that my fate’s so faded. Do you believe that I was crazy from the start dear? What I meant to say is that this emotion comes from fear. You turned your back yet you wanted the answers. I can’t turn back time. My life is in fractures. Without a change, without the help of family. I‘ll watch myself become the enemy. I’ll watch my dreams slowly die. This never ending fight between me, myself and I. I just can’t break away from this but it’s clear to me. I need a change.