Dear diary This battle’s on the verge of emergency Call in a chemical warfare attack
Tempting fate with the crisis that my vices will orchestrate Cold sweats as my bold pupils dilate I could die from the weight of it all Or make it through another close call
Here’s a note to myself, “Back to the wall The higher you get, girl, the further you fall” Here’s a note to myself, “Alone in my pain How close can you come to the edge before you walk away?”
Through blackened veins the evil in the needle bleeds into my brain And sells me on the sense of a fool’s escape I could die from the weight of it all Or make it through another close call
Here’s a note to myself, “Back to the wall The higher you get, girl, the further you fall” Here’s a note to myself, “Alone in my pain How close can you come to the edge before you walk away?” Before you walk away
But I just need one more taste, one more taste Scars earned from searching for solutions So desperate just to feel Sold on self-prescribed pollution, just distorting what was real And so it goes in the throes of what I can’t overcome Painfully numb Dear diary This battle’s on the verge of emergency
Here’s a note to myself, “Back to the wall The higher you get, girl, the further you fall” Here’s a note to myself, “Alone in my pain How close can you come to the edge before you walk away?”