Sometimes this life is not what you expect it to be You gotta play your cards right If you're to earn the life you need I thought I had it figured all out So went ahead and let it all out But what I know is that it's my doubt eating me alive
Everyday I pave the ground extending roads Where I'm going remains uncertain, renowned but no abode Music's my savior, my nature, found ways to level with those in need No show of greed, but if I don't open up I'll explode I'm full of these doubts, even now, there's no way you'll rob my flame But that won't stop my mind from clouding, I'm afraid to switch up lanes
It's like I'm stuck in cruise control and everyone's tryna get passed me While I'm too stubborn in my ways "S**** it, they can drive around me" Think my problem is I become too comfortable Unlike a bull I lose my drive, hit rock bottom, I have to pull Myself back up outta this hole, hopeless though, important you know That I'm only human but you hand me the rope, I'm not alone
Life likes to throw us these curveballs, that's not what I want I want control, I'm at the top looking down on myself hoping I don't flop It's happened a lot, I lose myself and forget that I'm here to lead, yeah Your ears lend me support, believe that's all I need And so I think...
Sometimes this life is not what you expect it to be You gotta play your cards right If you're to earn the life you need I thought I had it figured all out So went ahead and let it all out But what I know is that it's my doubt eating me alive
That after all I put in I still don't have all that I want That sinful manners have caused this battle, coup D'etat Of mindful matters, these daggers of sorrow rip through all I got I spend all these sleepless nights but give up? Hell no I shall not Wishing more would come is just a weakness, how Have I overcome in the past? Well you help me beat ‘em down
I mean my fears, you give me power to save myself from drowning How the sound unwinds me keeps me grounded, a soldier is inbound They seem to do well with their gimmicky raps But I bring true music that speaks to the heart, the lyrics they lack I focus on my message, the essence, you've given me that Surround myself with friends not those who just feed off digits, relax
A wicked relapse somehow turns receptive vision to c*** No pivoting back, but I won't give in, got no businnes with that I sit in this trap constantly plotting my vicios attacks Refuse to join the rotting, join my mission, musician has snapped So c'mon!
Sometimes this life is not what you expect it to be You gotta play your cards right If you're to earn the life you need I thought I had it figured all out So went ahead and let it all out But what I know is that it's my doubt eating me alive
It's eating me alive to think after all that's happened... Recall my passion, my past let's recap it, balance was absent I was captive, found out rappin' provided something I haven't Felt, abided to rules of attraction and rose from the ashes After all that I still lose control and self esteem Man I feel like homing devices converged on my soul just to feed
Fears are dethroning me, exposing grief, opposing teams Composing schemes to overthrow my deeds I reap what I sow, that's what I deem So what happens when I sow negativity and doubt myself? Gotta intervene and shout my wealth cuz I'm rich with dreams that sprout and hell Better bring some meaner bouts I'll yell
Til I seem serene, surmount my hill We're the kings and queens our routes fulfill when we take that leap and pounce It all seems simple when you see from outside the box I am Legend, it's time to kindle your speakers got the game on lock The world is Up in flames and I will Never be Forgotten now So Welcome me Home cuz I'm here to claim my crown
Sometimes this life is not what you expect it to be You gotta play your cards right If you're to earn the life you need I thought I had it figured all out So went ahead and let it all out But what I know is that it's my doubt eating me alive
It's eating me alive It's eating me alive It's eating me alive