and i know, and i fell there is no hope. what i was and i feel... what i was nothing is left. and i know, and i feel (i'll bathe in this blood i have shed for you)and i know there is no hope. i need you here. i only have memories. just memories. i just wish i knew how beautiful this all is. i just wish i knew how beautiful it could be, your hand in mine. i just wish i could wish... one second of a tear drop i have dreamt of this day. to relieve the pressure from my wrists as they so often did in the past. the sun is chilling my outside but my blood is boiling within. i have often wondered if they felt me of if they heard my screams as i do theirs when we are not together. i see my reflection in your eyes. lightning strikes the core to take my breath away. a tear falls and we become one.