I spent all night writing my suicide note; Detailing all the steps I took to gather the rope And tie it tightly to the rafters, looping it around my neck, kick the chair out and hang till I choke Fuck. I’ve still got a fucking ocean inside of my head I still think that Im worthless, and better off dead I’m still a nervous wreck Still begging to get strung up by my neck
But I’m already hanging on every word that you said And so ashamed of this pathetic life I’ve lead.
What the fuck did you mean "I'll never let go" I'm all alone Alone is all I've ever known What the fuck did you mean You'd never let go? You're gone now And I've got nowhere to go
I'm worn out Beaten by sleepless nights Exhausted hours spent trying to put up a fight Tired from a life spent pretending it’s all alright I can't remember the last time I felt at home I can't remember the last time I had someone to hold I'm all alone now, living life on my own I've passed up every chance I had to grow.
I believe that people change Or else we would have stayed the same Hand in hand and I would still be Enchanted by your name. But people change for no good reason
And your ghost has left me cursed.
I live my life from the back of a hearse
I lost the game, I gave up first
I believe that people change But only for the worse.