[Verse 1: Ja Rule] I'm a rockstar Rick James Mick Jagger Bright lights, big stages, bad habits Get high, go to prison, and evade taxes This is not what I envisioned when I started rapping Fuck the mansions, the phantoms, the suites, the cabanas Cause none of that matters when the mirror shatters All I see is pieces of me scattered Is it a miracle, or is it madness? Because when I puts it all together it reflects this And this is me About as close you gonna get to insanity, or genius My real life fantasy
[Hook: Anita Louise] Is this my life, or am I dreaming I can't lie, I don't believe it Oh, I don't believe it Oh, is this my life?
[Verse 2: Ja Rule] The talk of the fantasies, the more twisted the memories I never thought Gotti would leave the game like D-R-E Never thought 'Shanti would ever stop repping the team And how the the fuck is Lloyd hooking up with the enemies? If this was '03 I would have told you you was crazy If you told me this is what it would be I miss Vita, Caddi, Black Child, Charlie I thought we were tighter then the Marley's: family But I guess you can't be In an industry that breeds nothing but envy Jealousy, please nobody befriend me! In my real life fantasy
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[Verse 3: Ja Rule] I'm fantasizing about dreaming about a nightmare How weird is this? It seems like somebody just lost their grip on (Real life) Fantasy x4 I'm on more than they're on, cocaine or methadone I'm on this money these bitches the upper echelon I'm on one, reality's on one It's a thin line, here's to Christian