[I've] finally gained a kind of light and joyful freedom through experiencing and withstanding [repeated ordeals]. [If I'm] lonely, then [I'll] be content in loneliness. [If] a fire is lit, then [I'll] put the fire out. [As for] falling into some kind of love, so long as I'm happy, it's enough. I will control the pace of things myself. Thank you for gathering around to watch and mischievously hooting.
Uncontrollably falling [in a] romantic descent, [I] wholly indulge in the incomparably beautiful fireworks.
Leave me be. Let me thoroughly enjoy [it]. Stop guessing whether I will sigh with emotion or be moved. Love is a real fabrication, a strong weakness—I'm deriving pleasure from it right now. [As for] ultimately what fruit it will bear—I'll love and embrace the consequences[1].
Even if [I end up] hurting, so what? It's not as if [I've] never been in pain before.
[It] doesn't really count as a troublesome predicament; [it] is at most perplexing. Caring about me so much—are we really that close? My [moments of] sweet happiness and lonely sadness are not someone else's novel. Concerning the matter of my most private life, please do not listen to hearsay.
Uncontrollably falling [in a] romantic descent—nobody else intervene!— [I] wholly indulge in the incomparably beautiful fireworks—as sweet revenge against the past.
Leave me be. Let me thoroughly enjoy [it]. Stop guessing whether I will sigh with emotion or be moved. Love is a real fabrication, a strong weakness—I'm deriving pleasure from it right now. [As for] ultimately what fruit it will bear—I'll love and embrace the consequences[1].
I'll love and embrace the consequences.
Whether or not I'm happy, whether or not I'm sad—all [of those] are my gains. [As for] ultimately what fruit it will bear— I'll love and embrace the consequences. So long as I'm happy, it's enough.