Woke up hungover as the sun shot through my window On New Year’s Day this time last year I knocked my glasses off the dresser in confusion The shattered lens confirmed my fears
Picked up my phone and placed my head to the receiver To hear your voicemail cold and shrill I stumbled to the mirror, steadied myself at the sink My reflection was primered for the kill
This is a nightmare I can’t stop dreaming But the tears I left in the alleyway And the trips we took with the money we saved And the time we spent are like lines upon my face Oh darling, I’m a disgrace
I ran into the daylight outside of the apartment I shaved my hands into the snow I felt the cold, cold sun and watched the kids riding their bikes As a nearby radio began to drone
And then burst forth in song like the birth of a messiah The colors of the world they swayed And for the first time I remember in my life I got down on my knees and prayed
This is a nightmare I can’t stop dreaming But the tears I left in the alleyway And the trips we took with the money we saved And the time we spent are like lines upon my face Oh darling, I’m a disgrace
This is a nightmare I can’t stop dreaming But the shimmering sun streaming on my face And the sounds of life swimming in my veins And the snow melts down and the roots grow in its place
Oh, the worst parts of this year, they will all melt down with the snow