At the end of the journey, at last, with all the strength I'd gained, I went forth believing in myself, my heart unwavering and strong
I erased the past I'd hoped to forget, and in running, I moved ahead I was afraid of losing; I couldn't win against reality
Reality scares me - everyone's eyes, their eyes, Watching me, watching, watching, watching, watching, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, There's no value at all to my life, none... Ugly inferiority, dirty jealousy, they... Stab, stab, stab into me...
It's the last battle, and there's nowhere to run; I'm cornered, and my body trembles I cried out, like a child; I cried, cried, begging for help And no one came, they pretended not to hear, And I was so very, very hurt I was done in by self-loathing; I had my ears plugged all the while...
I was always all alone; I would never look into people's eyes Secluded in my shell, I had no allies at all I wanted to change myself, but I trembled, too afraid to I couldn't make a single step forth; my tears tumbled down...
I wanted someone to laugh with, I wanted someone to play with Deep in the darkness, all along I hoped to be saved So then you came along, and told me \"Could you try a smile?\" And hypocrite that I was, I stabbed at you, annoyed...
It's the last battle, but I didn't understand; I was cheered on, but I heard lies In my heart, twisted as it was, Truly, I hoped we could've talked more I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry; I could apologize forever, but it's far too late So that I wouldn't fall to self-loathing, I sang out: lalula lulalila...
I've had enough, I can't take it I vowed, I would live alone Through sorrow, through tears, I wouldn't need any rescuing Suddenly I felt a weight had been lifted; My worries vanished into thin air There was no longer a wall before me; All alone, I was at my last stage...
There wasn't a single happy day; Painful ones continued on There were so many enemies around me, And not a place to run I looked back to see a giant me, And it was laughing, looking into my eyes I knew this was my ultimate enemy; And terrified, I promptly ran away
I can't beat myself, I can't beat myself Mere dependence won't work, won't, won't, won't Never never never never, can't, can't No power to defeat it, none, none... My ugly heart, my despicable way of life, they... My rotten nature, dirty jealousy, they... Stab, stab, stab into me...
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It's the last battle, and there's nowhere to run; I'm cornered, and my body trembles I cried out, like a child; I cried, cried, begging for help And no one came, they pretended not to hear, And I was so very, very hurt I was done in by self-loathing; I had my ears plugged all the while...