Tonight I'm posed and popping like a peacock I'm pressing flesh, I'm smiling big My spinning head sings \"Stop, just stop\" 'Cause what used to calm me down Just rips my life to ribbons now
So I keep smiling, I find my window and quick cut out These days my hangman's hunger makes my gut kick My sleeping mind could map it blind A flask, a key, a bag, a fifth
I try to will myself away while shouting Habits plead their case So when the sun seers through my eyes A beggar's brain can't compromise
I splash cold water, I draw the curtains I stay inside and I can't say that it's a sickness More like a stranger I ask in and later realize It was a strangler slipping nooses in my den image: http://static.urx.io/units/web/urx-unit-loader.gif
But I was lonely, so I asked him \"Could you tie that one on me?\" it wasn't his fault I was eager and I was weak
So as I inched towards resolution Yeah, I'm not sure which life feels right No narrow noose or the wading water Will hang in hex or open eyes
I know my brother, he went one way And at the fork I heard him say \"Don't you follow, don't go making my mistakes\" And I realized what he meant Don't kill yourself to raise the dead, it never works You'll only end up joining them, it never works You'll only end up joining them