I thought it might help if I could try limiting All of my thoughts to meaningless little things If I got hung up on some letter you wrote me go Outside imagine the weather in Tokyo
But I'd get dragged down by the slightest connection Just fly off the tracks to some recollection Of a casual mention of a trip round the planet A phone call that I didn't get when you landed And how I still waited for you When you told me not to
Still remember the things that you chose to leave out of focus Admire, compose, and pretend not to notice And in all of your messages, the intimate care that you Took to show you didn't wish I was there with you
And of course I know what kind of beer we were drinking last Christmas When I asked you those things that were none of my business I think called you a liar but actually I was just mad that you wouldn't yell back at me And I never thanked you for that So thanks That's all you're gonna get
It's been a long time, it's almost even easy I get days, even weeks where you vanish completely I know I'm free now of hating or wanting you I just hate that I still understand what I saw in you I just hate that I still understand what I saw in you