My body is fucking broken My spirit collapsed long ago debilitated spine my lungs are shit and my diseased heart pumps cancer through my collapsed veins its something and ruined I am ruined I bring shame to all This is not my pleasure, it is my way Doubt and paranoia are my friends I've been betrayed and left with only them My body is entirely ruined My hands shake and seize until they feeel broken this life that is poison ruins I am ruined til my brain start to ache This is my pleasure, this is my way This cancer that is my life This cancer that is me Destroys