Flower petals continue to fall like red drops. My voice of rejection has all but faded into nothingness.
It would have been easier if I had been killed like I wanted…
ah… I won’t be freed… I won’t leave… I’m going to be defiled to exhaustion against my will. I want to go back… I can’t go back… I lost my place from the start… I’m rocked back and forth… the faint light of the new moon… it illuminates me… ah… I want to sleep… I can’t sleep… hurry up and finish, I want to be let sleep.
Night changes, and soon its colours fade. My pain only increases, and I’ve no place to ease it.
If you’ve grown tired of me, then end me…
ah… I can’t even… cry anymore… because I drowned out my emotions long ago. I want it to end… I can’t end it… the rhythm continues on violently… Rocked… and rocked… I just don’t care about anything anymore. My captured body… cannot be cleansed of the pain engraved inside it.
(Free me from here…)
If I can escape from here someday, there is just one place I would like to go…
My wounds consume my sadness…
ah… I won’t be freed… I won’t leave… I’m going to be defiled to exhaustion against my will. I want to go back… I can’t go back… I lost my place from the start… I’m rocked back and forth… the faint light of the new moon… it illuminates me… ah… I want to sleep… I can’t sleep… even if I close my eyes and pray, my prayers go unheard.
ah… I can’t even… cry anymore… because I drowned out my emotions long ago. I want it to end… I can’t end it… the rhythm continues on violently… Rocked… and rocked… I just don’t care about anything anymore. No one will save… my captured body… Will the day I find peace ever come…?
“An endless night robed in desire. Day after day of forced compliance. An inescapable, richly-coloured feast. This is reality. Unchangeable, cruel reality.”