and I have done this before and I've seen, and i've seen and I have been here before and I've seen, and i've seen this isn’t happening to me I gave, I tried but I’m far to weak the world in my mind is far to bleak I would probably die if I was somebody else if I swallowed my pride I would probably choke mary is this what you want from me? I fear denial will come and torture me I've been erased and have no soul to sell like a flame, like all the devils in hell going backwards to be released crumbling down into a wound that bleeds destroying myself just to wake up but I can't wake up, I can't wake up