Yeah, I feel like people are really weird about admitting, when they’re scared If you’re not scared ever, you’re just lying or something You’re being weird
Ten days in the bay left And I don’t mean to overthink that Got a one way straight to L.A.X And I ain’t blink yet I know you’d think that I’d of figured out this whole thing Like where his chink at? Segue to Lil Dicky getting bigger than a Yao Ming But can I shrink that? Where my shrink at? I don’t know what to feel Everything has gotten totally real Everything I always wanted right in front of me with nobody near So it’s weird that I’m overly scared But I’m so unprepared Holding the beer, I’m withholding the fear Not in the clear but I’m kind of revered And yeah I might appear like the chill type The veneer is not real in the real life What it feel like? Thanks giving I was missing I ain’t even miss ‘em Girlfriend hella distant I ain’t even listen Only shit I really care about is spittin’ writtens This is the beginning I’m just getting into the game My world’s not spinning the same The shit looking like it’s bigger than Dave It’s so crazy But when all this sitting at stake I can’t break, even if I’m afraid it might change me
Look if you let me You know I could get deep Baby hope you ready I’m coming through Running you That’s what I do Just know that it’s all for you So what you gonna choose?
Afraid to say okay And I know I’m not gonna get in the way But I’m afraid Who I wanna be is what I became But I’m ashamed Ain’t no coming back Facing what I wanted but it’s all fucking weird At night I’m really scared
I ain’t made from the projects But you know I treat the game like a project So you know it’s not the same kind of progress Different process, but I digress Other rappers didn’t blow overnight They ain’t had a nine to five that was totally right They was all up on the grind from the moment they write At twenty five, hadn’t even done a show in my life It’s like, damn, I’m a rapper, how did that happen? I was making ads then, back when Only used to rapping to my Mac then Packed venues came through like shoot let’s practice Tryin' tell you I ain’t bred for this shit Despite that, feeling like I’m meant for this shit But like that, everything depends on this shit And I ain’t betting against it But I ain’t had a moment to reflect what I’m betting against it I’m next even though it’s pretentious I sense it Relentless, but it leave me defenseless I guess I should learn to accept it, but it’s hectic Oh you want a condensed list? I’m worried that I’m about to give my all to it, hundred percent You ain’t gotta know it all to discover what’s left Pretty fucking intense And I worry that I got a lotta gall when it come to success Telling y'all this a hundred percent But what happens if I fall short of what I call the surest of bets? Cause what’s a hundred percent? What’s a hundred percent? Is that it take a lot to make me content And I’m ‘bout to chase around a legend that I fucking invented While I’m neglecting everybody that I love and respected Because I hate the thought of coming in second And I don’t want to do no second guessing when it come to progressing Because I really couldn’t stomach regretting my effort When I’m at the end and I’m assessing if I could of done better I better be able to be it or never Or be the best ever But if somehow I’m really that special Then I’m about to deal with mad pressure I fear that when I finish my assessment I'mma be in depression Because I’ll see a lot of me as regressing It’s obvious to me to be the best a lot of me is repressing itself I wonder what I’ll see in reflections? I wonder if I’ll run into a woman cool with coming in second? Or if I’m bound to be the fool at the weddings? Alone and regretting the whole thing Now you’re seeing why it’s so big What would y'all do, if y'all were the old me? Get involved and you gotta give the whole thing This is no fling, this devoting Every mother fucking part of yourself No matter what ever the cards you was dealt You going all in I don’t know about y'all but I’m gone And I don’t know if I’m ballin' or bawling
Look if you let me You know I could get deep Baby hope you ready I’m coming through Running you That’s what I do Just know that it’s all for you So what you gonna choose?
Afraid to say okay And I know I’m not gonna get in the way But I’m afraid Who I wanna be is what I became But I’m ashamed Ain’t no coming back Facing what I wanted but it’s all fucking weird At night I’m really scared