What do I do to ignore them behind me? Do I follow my instincts blindly? Do I hide my pride / from these bad dreams And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening? Do I / sit here and try to stand it? Or do I / try to catch them red-handed? Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness, Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness? Because I can't hold on / when I'm stretched so thin I make the right moves but I'm lost within I put on my daily facade but then I just end up getting hurt again
By myself [myself] I ask why, but in my mind I find I can't rely on myself I can't hold on [To what I want when I'm stretched so thin] It's all too much to take in I can't hold on [To anything watching everything spin] With thoughts of failure sinking in
If I / turn my back I'm defenseless And to go blindly seems senseless If I hide my pride and let it all go on / then they'll Take from me till everything is gone If I let them go I'll be outdone But if I try to catch them I'll be outrun If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer Then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer [By myself]
How do you think / I've lost so much I'm so afraid / I'm out of touch How do you expect / I will know what to do When all I know / Is what you tell me to
Don't you know I can't tell you how to make it go No matter what I do, how hard I try I can't seem to convince myself why I'm stuck on the outside