I'm parked in front of this clinic Been waiting for 40 minutes The girl that I'm with is in it And recently been admitted I play it cool but I'm sick to my stomach knowing we did it Sometimes I just wish she hadn't, though I never admit it I get a text from my dude, telling me to come and kick it I'm passing time as I rhyme from the driver's side of her Civic Or maybe it was a Sentra, honestly don't remember What I do is the guilt and religion says I'm a sinner So how do I keep revealing agony that I'm feeling Trying to keep my composure, she's walking out of the building Told her I was a chauffeur, anyways I'd be willing To take her along at six thirty I got some dealing And I know she thinks I'm weak And she's sucking in her teeth Like how can you leave me now when you promised to stay and sleep? And I feel like I'm a thief because I'm overwhelmed with this grief I've stolen her innocence and sold it back to her cheap And I feel disgust too That it can be us two It's happily ever after, that chapter is just through And I'm chilling with my partners, we looking for what's new That's when I finally realized that men can be sluts too And there's no way to divert it I know my soul is perverted I pollinated this flower Then ripped it out of the surface Over watered the roots and the truth as I need some purpose Lord knows I'm not perfect
[Hook: Jarell Perry]
So where do we go? Don't wait for me now Don't wait for me now (x2) I know she's worth it But I ain't perfect, no So don't wait for me now because I'll never be perfect
[Verse 2: Locksmith]
And I've been a liar, I've been a cheater I'd rather sleep with a stranger than be a man and leave her I'd rather sleep with the shame than not appease her Plus I know she's easily pleased so I'd rather mislead her We exorcising our demons And it's like our break-ups and make-ups becoming seamless And I say I love her sometimes but do I mean it? And it's like we're only together out of convenience And I remember my mother was always teaching me Said every time I f*** a girl I lose another piece of me Especially in this industry women come at you frequently You gonna have to prove you're better than what you seem to be And I said I'd listen But I feel like something's missing And I thought that my admission to guilt was my petition Even though they say its wrong, we feel it's the right decision How do we raise child in these f***ed up conditions? And we can barely eat or sleep still I try to comfort her, tell her we need to keep still She said a part of you had grown inside of me Now that part is dead so how do you think that makes me feel? I guess I feel responsible I guess this really is more than just some obstacle But if you still can't forgive me than it's worthless Lord knows I'm not perfect
[Hook]
[Verse 3: Locksmith]
Sneaking up her mama's stairs Trying to avoid her mama's stares And I'm thinking like does her mama care? Then I realize the procedure her and her mama shared Drama stares you in the face and that could sever time I had to sacrifice us so I could better mine Then I asked you what was wrong, you told me nevermind And right then I realized that it was never mine