There are so many ways to say it I'll give honesty a chance. I do remember this day. This particular day when I made this choice. It's so clear in my head that it almost erases almost all my memories left. This choice, no doubt I'll make it once more. Sometimes, you may follow your guts, the pulse/beat of your heart craving for blood. But you know it, don’t you?
I cared for myself. Not because I had to but because it's what define me as a human being. I've made up so much stories about this moment that I could write books with it. Million pages of lies. But I do remember this day.
I've never wanted to live like this Die like this, think live this Neither did I want to tell you these kind of pure non-sense.
I've always hoped of a better way to experience happiness This is the end, I can feel it so close It's like a relief after what I've done To you, to us, to everybody who was too stupid to believe I could ever reach salvation.