To escape the perimeter of this fleshy prison To escape into milky nimbus, blurry-eyed, light-headed To erase dreams, memory and visions To ultimately forget every word, every face, every nightmare A permanent amnesia which foregoes responsibility, the enemy of freedom But I can't forget I remember too much I remember evey detail, every nuance Am forced to repeat even the most repellent occurrence My sanity insists upon it Insists upon expulsion Purgation Insists I wring from every cell The poisoned thoughts, polluted deeds, malicious intentions That would, if not puked forth, Riddle me with disease With sickness With death My incredible well-being is a testament to the curative of confession The healing power of words And if it makes you sick So much the better