Oh, how I died the night I found my baby in her arms Oh, how that made my heart sicken in my bosom Since till death he was to be mine only, never to part
You may deem me romantic Husbands after all desert their wives everyday I’d rather die than having to live this way
Why couldn’t he just put a gun to my head & paint the walls with my stupid brains stick a 10-inch butcher knife in my round & smiling face? That would have made perfect sense Oh what is it that keeps me alive? Whether upheld by strength, by chance or fate, I want this to end He should have send me to an early grave For all this is useless, only senseless, all is worthless
Let me die just like the girl Who was lost while thumbing rides The van’s radio drowning out her screams As she was led to a shallow grave
Who was blessed by the blows Some good son rained upon her head Who never punshed the clock that day
I would have swallowed my pride Swallowed up in misery as I am now Go ahead, this world has got nothing left I could hope for I’d rather eat any dried dog turd Feeling with my tongue for stray bits of bone Than having to live this cruel life alone
For I do know he cherishes dark fantasies of rape & murder Let me be smashed repeatedly against my skull till it is torn open
Go ahead, saying: I don’t want the whole world, just your part of it Saying: Are there things on your chest you need to confess? My panties, bra & slip thrown out with the garbage Along with me Go on & rip my clothing Pull my pants down around my ankles Ravage me till my screams & death rattle Fade to white noise
Come on, come on, come on I’m thumbing rides For all this is useless, all is senseless, only worthless