it started with the end and it ended with a curse reckless in undoing and so versed the alimentary bird song the wind against our backs nothing that could stop us until fear attacked and just like every morning stumbles through to night she saw the empty sky and took flight and on the dew and soil sat alone but with the dawn i thought we had a dream but now it’s gone i’ve lost words to say but i’ll try anyway i just hope that you don’t turn your back on me again the last time we sank into that violent sea i felt the cold of foreign oceans and the breath of broken dreams but it keeps me coming back the sights and sounds of unknowing the questions without answers and a rib cage overflowing and with every beat apart it’s like the sky without a sun i’ve lost my sense of balance and the ground has lost its charm play dead play dead and just hope it goes away if you can’t see the eyes you’ll never know the pain it brings dead play dead and just hope it passes by you buried your convictions so you could stop asking why but as i learned to love the silence the same i hated as a kid then i saw my own reflection in the dark of pressed eyelids the apparition searched himself before he finally fiercely urged he said that everything is awesome but that nothing fucking matters so just live your live and choose your own path don’t play dead
//I write all the lyrics. The album is reflective on a pretty crazy year I had recently in which there was a big fire in my apartment and I lost most of my possessions. I was without a home for a little while and I got really sick too. Soon after that I got sued for something stupid, three of my family members died, and my dog had to get emergency back surgery. I also went through a breakup of a four year relationship.
It would’ve been easy to get down in the dumps after all that but the better solution for me was to appreciate the journey and create enjoyable things. Just because it will be gone one day doesn’t mean you shouldn’t make it anyway. Life is a paradox- it sucks and it’s amazing and it’s the only one you have.