chimeiteki na nani ka wo ubawareta demo naku tetteiteki ni okashitsukusareta demo naku attouteki na nani ka ni ki nasareta to demo naku tousakuteki ni moteasobareta demo naku sou, watashi wo, shibaru mono nado, hajime kara inakatta no da.
It’s not like my life was threatened or anything vital taken away. It’s not like my body was thoroughly raped or violated. It’s not like my mind was overwhelmingly assaulted or controlled. It’s not like my being was perverted or inverted or broken. There was nothing that ever bound me, nothing else existed from the start.
でも、目が、離せない。 でも、足が、止まらない。 でも、腕が、動かない。 でも、心が、***
demo, me ga, hanasenai. demo, ashi ga, tomaranai. demo, ude ga, ugokanai. demo, kokoro ga, lalalala
But, I could not take my eyes away. But, I could not stop my feet. But, I could not move my arms. But, I could not **** my heart.
私は、ただ、くいいるように、それをみていた。
watashi, tada, kuiiru you ni, sore wo miteita.
I just stared at -it-, as if nothing else existed.
I walk one step, and I’m visiting a shrine I continue two steps, and I’m spirited away I tread three steps, and I’m playing god I arrive with four steps, and ****
もう、ひきかえすことなど、できないとわかった。
mou hikikaesu koto nado, dekinai to wakatta.
I knew that now, I could never turn back.
うつくしきこのせかいを、目にした刹那の瞬間より わたしは、きっと新たに生まれ変わったのだ。
utsukushiki kono sekai wo me ni shita setsuna no toki yori watashi wa, kitto arata ni umarekawatta no da.
From the very moment I set eyes on this beautiful world, I must have been born anew.