Rocking back and forth, on my bed, on the floor, in my head We're just going through the motions over again Gasping once in a while for air Grasping at these slippery strings for somewhere else, someone to hold me when
I don't feel like making sense right now All I need to do is let myself break down Can I give myself that? It builds and it pushes out at my seams Till it erupts in a torrent of shaking and screams I don't know what it means
So I lie here looking up at my stars I'm empty, there's nothing left inside my heart Why can't I connect why the fuck is this so hard It's like I've trained myself to shut out the world When I need it most, when I want to be in love and be held What did I do to make myself into this girl?
I can't write because I don't feel I can't ask for help if it doesn't feel real So I don't write, just in case I feel That's too terrifying, with that I cannot deal Now I'm writing and it suddenly seems real
I've lost the people I love I've lost the person I love to be I've lost my sense of responsibility Now I've got to pick up the pieces and work on a better me