I'm failing to bring peaceful emotions For a reason which I cannot perceive But for a moment I am lost In my own mind, alone Those painful memories come flooding back Like a sea of tortured deities I will die believing life is worthless For depression describes my every thought No longer is love relevant To love would be to die To look at what has already been looked at Every day by myself Has stopped my mind from acknowledging The quality of this earth's belongings All words are lost within a desperate imagination For rain does not cease to fall in my mind A grey cloud dwells behind my eyelids I do not thrive on anything but the thought of dying Leaving this earth is my soul aim in life Doom to me is revelation.....