Fresh outta high school Glad cus he hated it Everybody in the senior class would call him gay but it It never bothered him His name Jonathon Best friend Julie she was cool she went to Prom with him The principle said prom was no place for a queer couple If he showed up with a boy then there be real trouble Empty threats But what really got to him is that his boyfriend didn’t wanna go to prom with him Boyfriend Roderick kept his secret closeted Scared to come out into this world of zero tolerance Kinda popular Played a lot of politics Jonathon was book smart Just received a scholarship Off to college Wanted Roderick to follow him He see him in the halls but Rod would never acknowledge him Away from school though he was so affectionate Jon had a good thing, no use in upsetting it Besides at college everything would be difference Everyone is educated no one would be trippin He had it all figured out plus his parents were excited just to get him out the house So they bought him a ticket Even bought one for Roderick Said to leave the end of summer they would pay for all of it So excited on his way to work at In-N-Out End of the shift he drove straight up to Roderick’s house He hopped out Saw him with his crew He walked right up He was ready to share the news It had been a few days He forgot how much he missed him So exited that he moved in and kissed him Roderick dissed him Threw him to the floor Said, “You faggot what you have to go and do that for?” Looked at his homies, “Ya’ll know I’m not gay” They just shook their heads Turned and walked away (“Fuck. Fucks wrong with you?”) Now he’s screaming at Jonathon “What the hell is wrong with him?” “Ok it’s over then lets be honest then. They never knew the real you they’re not your real friends.” He drove away and vowed to never speak to him again It had been a few weeks Before Jon left to college He thought that they should speak Scared to do it for fear of rejection But either way he knew the world would never accept them (Dear America, When you tell gay Americans that they cannot serve their country openly or marry the person they love, you’re telling that to kids too) Roderick was seventeen In n out of jail since ten Never knew his father Or spent time with any other men He started runnin in them circles with the hustlers Gang bangin’ dope slingin’ Had some loyal customers Locked him up at a very young age Found religion and it ended all his criminal ways He also found his first boyfriend when he was locked up Came home conflicted So he really didn’t talk much The beginnings of a double life The chaplain back in juvie used to tell him that it wasn’t right His bond with god was so strong it was until he met Jon And it felt so perfect But suffering eternal damnation, Was it worth it? He still had to see him it had been two years He knew that he could never leave him So he lived in fear of god’s wrath The preacher said God loves us all except fags That made him so mad he started packing his bags Said he’s run away with Jon until it went bad (“Like, did you know, did you hear about him? I mean like, Jonathon, he’s my friend, he’s my gay best friend, of course, but like, Roderick? I fucking kissed him. He tried to fuck me! What the fuck? I hope I don’t have anything. Should I go get tested? What a fucking faggot. I fucking hate that piece of shit faggot. What a fucking bitch. Fucking cunt. I fucking hate him.) The big incident Jon slipped in front of his friends and started kissing him Now everything was different He shut him out Never thought about forgiving him Until he got that text Jon wanted to meet up the day after next They met at In-N-Out On his dinner break but he was so mad he couldn’t look him in the face Soon as he spoke they both started crying Said he missed him so much it felt like he was dying Jo