I Was Three Feet from the Floor Gasping For Air Trying To Release My Fathers Hands from My Throat
I Looked Into His Eyes And Wondered, If My Feet Would Ever Touch the Floor Again
Have you ever been hit so hard that it sends your body flying across the room?
We all fall to the floor at some point. It's how you pick yourself up; that's the real challenge, isn't it? I've always lived in my own world and I've always found a way to escape my troubles. I've learned that there's light even in the darkest places. I can't blame anyone for anything. You can't rely on other people to make you happy.
There was a time, I suffered so much I wanted to get it out of me. I would cut my arms not to kill myself. I don't want to die. I know I am lucky to be on earth. I did it so the physical pain would calm the pain that was eating me inside. Nothing was erased. I live with my past tucked away deep inside of me. It comes out as an explosion and it invades me.
I believe we are messengers on Earth. I believe in angels. I'm blessed by God to tell myself, I'd suffer that much more to become who I will be someday.
I have a tale to tell Sometimes it gets so hard to hide it well I was not ready for the fall Too blind to see the writing on the wall
Now, You Have To Realize, Not Only Do I Have a Family, But Now I Have a Whole Hood And that’s Power
But I Ain’t No Grimey-Ass Nigga I Was Never Out to Kill Anybody
Especially When I Made That Decision to Gang-Bang I Just Want To Pit In
But One Day, I Was Forced To Do Something That Made Me Open My Eyes
And I Realized That This Shit Ain’t No Game One of the holies Got Popped And I Was Pressures Into Doing My First Drive By
It Was Kinda Fucked Up, The Way They Tried To Dot Me Up
Me and My Bro, We Has Headed Back to the Eight Block
Some holies Rolled Up And They Asked Us to Go Somewhere
We Pulled Up To the Corner Then He Placed a Chunky-Ass Gun in My Ride
He Said, You Know What to Do With It´´ It’s Time to Get Poppin´ For The Hood
But I Wasn’t Out To Kill AnybodyвЂ
Chorus:
A man can tell a thousand lies I've learned my lesson well Hope I live to tell The secret I have learned, 'till then It will burn inside of me
I know where beauty lives I've seen it once, I know the warm she gives The light that you could never see It shines inside, you can't take that from me
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2nd Chorus:
The truth is never far behind You kept it hidden well If I live to tell The secret I knew then Will I ever have the chance again
If I ran away, I'd never have the strength To go very far How would they hear the beating of my heart Will it grow cold The secret that I hide, will I grow old How will they hear When will they learn How will they know