Today, I find myself drawn to yet another “tortured artist type” like a fool.
the byronic hero, apparently my type.
M waits as I read his poems, it's silent in the room and I feel pressure to react, but reading his words for the first time, I am delighted. I've never met anyone my own age who could write like this, or uses the word "autosarcophagy" in casual conversation, but that’s the allure of the hyper-literate. And what a perfect word to describe the cycle of self destruction--an Oroboros snake, tail in mouth.
In the night, we bruise each other, kiss and bite until our lips are bleeding, he tells me his definition of sex. His body is foreign, uncharted territory
We halt for December break. lyrics Winter fucked us over in the end Trapped within our families Only a reminder Of every little failure Separating us from all of them
Your messages are lighting up my phone There's so many good things to read And someday we'll go thrifting How promising and thrilling Still I wonder, what can all this mean?
How romantic Are we lovers? I hope you don’t find me naive But I revel In the sheer un- certainty Send me pictures I’ll be lonely When this fire dies. the faded memory Will outlast you It’ll keep you As you were
Doesn't really matter what we are I don't want to get in too deep I'll be like my father With photos of old lovers Filling up the shoebox in my chest.