When I die, fuck it, I wanna go to hell Cause I'm a piece of shit, it ain't hard to fucking tell It don't make sense, going to heaven with the goodie-goodies Dressed in white, I like black Timbs and black hoodies God'll prolly have me on some real strict shit No sleeping all day, no getting my dick licked Hanging with the goodie-goodies lounging in paradise Fuck that shit, I wanna tote guns and shoot dice All my life I been considered as the worst Lying to my mother, even stealing out her purse Crime after crime, from drugs to extortion I know my mother wished she got a fucking abortion She don't even love me like she did when I was younger Sucking on her chest just to stop my fucking hunger I wonder if I died, would tears come to her eyes Forgive me for my disrespect, forgive me for my lies My baby mother's eight months, her little sister's two Who's to blame for both of them I swear to God I want to just slit my wrists and end this bullshit Throw the Magnum to my head, threaten to pull shit And squeeze, until the bed's completely red I'm glad I'm dead, a worthless fucking buddha head The stress is building up, I can't I can't believe suicide's on my fucking mind, I wanna leave I swear to God I feel like death is fucking calling me Naw you wouldn't understand (Nigga talk to me please, man) You see it's kinda like the crack did to Pookie, in New Jack Except when I cross over, there ain't no coming back (Yo, I'mma call you when I get in the car) Should I die on the train track, like Ramo in Beat Street People at the funeral fronting like they miss me My baby momma kissed me but she glad I'm gone (Put your girl on the phone, nigga) She knew me and her sister had something going on I reach my peak, I can't speak Call my nigga Chic, tell him that my will is weak I'm sick of niggas lying, I'm sick of bitches hawkin'