I hate everyone I love for keeping me anchored to this earth it's in all their god damned support that I can't leave behind a happy corpse
with a smile on my face and a hole in my chest 'cause there was a hole in my heart that no one could fix
father asks 'why' but please I don't know why mother keeps crying she can't let me go talk going around about being institutionalized cringing in my mind about the thought of being exorcised there's a demon in my brain and he's eating all my joy he's the same spawn of satan that made me the boy I am I am I am I am I am I am I am I am I am
I am
such a fucking wreck
and I'm sort of scared I'm 19 years old already dead-set on being alone
so give me my klonopin and leave me alone or god come about and let me leave home
'cause I hate myself for being self-involved and I love myself for being better than all with my nose in the air I can truly say you would miss me too much if I were gone