Muh'fuckers poppin at me Baby mama say I can't, be the pappy all this propaganda with my family E'rything I got wasn't hand to me Had to hit the block so gradually became the man I be (be, be) Sorry that my pop wasn't a man to me Had to opt for different boyfriends my mammy handed me Performin mammograms on her while I play Atari Scarred me, horribly, horribly [sips drink] Lock that thought out, but at times I lose perspective No disrespect but I was forced to think reckless In and out of courts for usin illegal methods Guess them poor choices left us disconnected The one who points the finger got four for pointin back Nothin can come between us, I'm hopin you knowin that And if I let you down can't keep holdin it on my back I gotta stay focused where my sanity's at, sanity's at
[Chorus:] Dodgin all these darts in my thoughts I seek Can't let these people spill my drink I'ma mob like a boss 'til I'm off in my casket's reach Won't let these niggaz spill my drink I'm ridin through the city sippin Henny with my thoughts in sync Can't let these niggaz spill my drink To my niggaz gettin money still hungry tryin to stay on your feet Don't let these niggaz spill yo' drink (drink, drink)
E'rybody lookin at me, like the boy lookin scraggly Since he ain't with Shady like, e'rything collapsed behind me A contract don't define me It just reminds me that I'm givin up my paper to sign me And with the dismay of my record release delay I see who was close, somehow they slipped away now Price to pay when you ball then get on your A.I. Crossover was cold, now O's under the radar To e'rything I cherish gotta be re-established All cause the marriage didn't succeed, it perished The characters I used to feed all vanished Left me on my knees, bleedin with no bandages No gauze when I fall, but even through it all I handled this way to ball, mechanics is kept at a hundred, them other niggaz is amateurs Guess that's the law of averages - eww
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So even when you're dreamin and I'm, intervenin demons Get to, workin on your inner bein, let 'em know you see 'em When the G that's within got ya, infra-red schemin Keep me in your head instead, you don't need to bleed 'em Cause a boat with no anchor is a boat that's gon' sail You don't even need them folks, all's well May they all burn in hell, cause when all else fails You the truth, your blue glass won't spill