Silence in solitude...What have I made of myself? What have I become? I am ashamed, behind it all I am desperate. I am afraid, in every step that I might take. I have finally seen this beast step into the light. I am fully disgusted at the very sight. This is not who I am. I am so much greater. This is not who I am. I am so much more. I am just a broken down man. Hoping to fix what I have ruined, the people I love, and the love I've killed. i see this bridge in the distance. That very first step might very well the hardest thing in my life. I have to live like this every single day. I have to see the same face. i have to hear the same name. I have yet to come to terms. I am damaged. I have to live like this. Broken, desperate, behind it all I have yet to come to terms. I am just a broken down man. Hoping to fix what I have ruined, the people I love, and the love I've killed. I am better than this...I am better than this.