0n my 0wn i pretend that he's still with me all al0ne i dream 0f him til evening ive l0st him the way he st00d beside me and when i feel h0peless i fantasize that he will find me  if y0u l00k cl0se the rubble gl0ws like embers 0f the l0ve i struggle t0 remember wish i had t0ld him h0w he made things s0 alright and all i see is him and me the way we were t0gether
and i kn0w my wishes w0nt c0me true that i dream 0f things that never w0uld have been and alth0ugh he has f0und s0me0ne new still i say theres a way f0r us
i l0ve him but when the day is 0ver hes still g0ne i kn0w that hes still with her  with0ut him ive g0ne thr0ugh many changes i cann0t bring myself t0 care f0r friends wh0ve bec0me strangers
i l0ve him but every day im learning since ive died ive 0nly been pretending with0ut me his w0rld has kept 0n turning a w0rld thats full 0f happiness that i will never kn0w i l0ve him i l0ve him i l0ve him but hes left me 0n my 0wn