I’m overmatched, undermanned. I’m trying hard to understand. Crushed beneath an ounce of hope and flattened by your heavy hand. I know you’re giving it your everything. You’re letting me down. You say she’s gone for the good of all of us and so I should Be thankful for the life that lies ahead, and be it understood: That I have everything. Well, everything is letting me down. You say in love we tend to hide. We lose ourselves. We die inside. Devotion takes the place of self-reliance; soon will follow pride. And that is why I cannot listen to you, grandma, not now. I never lost myself at all. I may have slipped; I didn’t fall. I never hid. I didn’t die. My pride’s intact. I’m standing tall. I gave it everything til everything was letting her down. I don’t know if she understands, or ever will But I know that we’re better off, and better still: I hear that she’s laughing more than she had been So I know that her bitter heart is sweet again May it put your mind to rest: My worry lies with her. Invest- -ing all she had in someone so alone is not the healthiest. Not that I grew, not that I thrived beside a woman so sour. Oh, I had more to give, I know. I guess I just assumed she’d low- -er certain expectations given life had flung me too and fro. And it was all that I could do to stop from shutting right down. I should have told her, I confess: your bitter heart is such a mess. In every little drop of blood—an ounce of love; a pound of stress. She never mentioned I was something that was weighing her down. I don’t know if she understands, or ever will But I know that we’re better off, and better still: I hear that she’s laughing more than she had been So I know that her bitter heart is sweet again.