Sometimes it takes everything falling apart to smile. Watching the world burn keeps you war for a while. My jaw aches from grinding my teeth when I sleep, and the hole in my chest is eight miles deep. Irony’s great but it won’t pay my court fees. My thought start to stop at a hundred degrees. Each day’s a chance for things to get worse. If you’re not dying from cancer you’re dying from thirst. Each moment’s building up to nothing. It seems like I can’t fall asleep cos I stopped having dreams. Hate is our candy, love’s our disease, desperation is somehow all that we need, I’ve got identical blisters on each heel, but I keep moving on, so I know they won’t heal.
Sometimes it takes everything falling down not to feel like all the paint on my walls is starting to peel.
Here we go again
Sat down to write, made an honest attempt, it was earnestly forced and came out half bent. the pen met the paper, it was sadly contrived, so I burned a few down, contemplated some rhymes. In an over composed, premeditated sort of way, I got it all out not knowing what to say. Sometimes it takes fucking up to be ok and it takes a ticket home to decide you want to stay. Things will catch up to us from when we were young. I’m twenty-two now, but I won’t be for long. Sometimes it takes forgetting every line to remember who you are and why you’re even trying. Pouring over words for a song no one will hear is the only sense I can make albeit unclear.
Meaning and clarity aren’t mutually exclusive in the end. Sisyphus said it best when he said, “shit, here we go again.”