I can’t make the hills The system is shot I’m living on pills For which I thank G-d
I followed the course From chaos to art Desire the horse Depression the cart
I sailed like a swan I sank like a rock But time is long gone Past my laughing stock
My page was too white My ink was too thin The day wouldn’t write What the night pencilled in
My animal howls My angel’s upset But I’m not allowed A trace of regret
For someone will use What I couldn’t be My heart will be hers Impersonally
She’ll step on the path She’ll see what I mean My will cut in half And freedom between
For less than a second Our lives will collide The endless suspended The door open wide
Then she will be born To someone like you What no one has done She’ll continue to do
I know she is coming I know she will look And that is the longing And this is the book
-Leaving Mt. Baldy-
I come down from the mountain after many years of study and rigorous practice. I left my robes hanging on a peg in the old cabin where I had sat so long and slept so little. I finally understood I had no gift for Spiritual Matters. “Thank you Beloved,” I heard a heart cry out as I entered the stream of cars on the Santa Monica Freeway, westbound for L.A. A number of people (some of them practitioners) have begun to ask me angry questions about the Ultimate Reality. I suppose they don’t like to see old Jikan smoking.