When I woke and daylight cracked through the shades. A stare at the ceiling told me I’ve had nothing. I’ve got nothing but hate for myself reflecting the image of a petty affliction. Hell’s been calling and I’ve been dying to call back.
I’ve got something to show for the years that I’ve suffered. Veins filled with liquor and a fist that’s bruised and broken. I’m confiding in a mind that’d opt to leave life with ease. September’s singing, bury me deep unloving. I’ve got nothing but hate for the days when I meant something.
I’ve had setbacks; I’ve backtracked toward the past we intertwined at. From Brooklyn streets to the house that drained my mindset. In a house that’s broken, I’m folding like the framing half awoken. I’d rather be sleeping, but I know September’s Singing.
Get the fuck out of bed, there’s more to be said. We all pretend to feel alive, but pleasure’s been dead. I’m your disease, I’m a let down, I’m a fuck up misled. I am the single standing child that you shake off and dread.
I left the child in your image miles down the road. I threw away all his belongings to lighten the load. They’ll say I’m sorry for your loss just for conversation’s sake. I abandoned the child that tainted your name.