silence is repeating in vain the machine is screaming:
“my little prince, these gears are breaking you’re so high on your throne but to my disabled mind this fear is not enough”
THIS FEAR IS NOT ENOUGH
written in the plan it was written on that paper
my legs are clinging onto your head but you’ll get used to it i promise you you will make it i promise you i promise, i promise you
“lately, i've become accustomed to the way the ground opens up and envelops me each time i go out to walk the dog. or the broad-edged silly music the wind makes when i run for the bus... things have come to that. and now, each night i count the stars, and each night i get the same number. and when they will not come to be counted, i count the holes they leave. nobody sings anymore.”
trying to hold until the end and turning away from your friends
you hear the voices but you are not spoken to
drowning down again drowning down alone again, alone again
you hear the voices but you are not spoken to
“and then last night, i tiptoed up to my daughter's room and heard her talking to someone, and when i opened the door, there was no one there... only she on her knees, peeking into her own clasped hands.”
silent
(featuring words from Amiri Baraka’s “Preface to a Twenty Volume Suicide Note” poem)