[NATALYA] AND I WILL KISS YOU ON THE TOP OF YOUR HEAD FOR THAT IS THE KINDEST PLACE TO PLACE A KISS THE MOST REVERENT COMPASSIONATE AND DEAR
I AM A JOYFUL PERSON AN OPTIMISTIC PERSON BUT SOMETIMES I GET SCARED YOU’VE BEEN DROWNING SO LONG IN YOUR OCEAN WHAT IF MY BOUNDLESS JOY HAS A LIMIT AFTER ALL AND I’M NOT THE ROCK YOU NEED TO SAVE YOU YOU ARE IN A HOLE AND SO I JUMP INTO THE HOLE BUT I CAN’T GET YOU OUT YOU ARE IN A HOLE AND SO I JUMP INTO THE HOLE BUT I CAN’T GET YOU OUT
HOW MANY TIMES CAN I ANSWER THE SAME QUESTIONS HOW MANY TIMES CAN I SAY THE SAME THING THE SAME THING WHY DON’T YOU JUST SNAP THE FUCK OUT OF IT YOUR DARK UNKNOWABLE DEPRESSION YOUR FANTASTIC SPIRALING BLACK VOID ISN’T IT PATHETIC? ISN’T IT A CHOICE? CAN’T YOU DECIDE? I DON’T WANNA THINK EVERYTHING I KNOW THAT YOU ARE TERRIFIED I THINK
YOU ARE IN A HOLE AND SO I JUMP INTO THE HOLE BUT I CAN’T GET YOU OUT YOU ARE IN A HOLE AND SO I JUMP INTO THE HOLE BUT I CAN’T GET YOU OUT
OH MY BIFURCATED GENIUS HOW I WISH YOU COULD HEAR THE THINGS YOU ARE WHEN YOU’RE BURSTING AND BLEEDING SHAKING AND SHINING AND SHATTERING HOW CAN YOU KEEP THAT INSIDE YOU? HOW DARE YOU HOLD YOURSELF DOWN WHY DON’T YOU JUST SNAP THE FUCK OUT OF IT
GO SCREAMING ON A CLIFFSIDE GO RACING IN A THUNDERSTORM DO DRUGS IN THE DESERT SEE VISIONS IN BLACK SMOKE HAVE AFFAIRS CRY CONFESSIONS DO WHATEVER YOU NEED TO DO TO MAKE YOURSELF WHOLE AGAIN GO SHAVE YOUR HEAD AND RUN WITH THE BULLS JUST DO IT QUICK BEFORE I GET SICK OF YOU I DON’T EVER WANNA GET SICK OF YOU
I KNOW I’M SUPPOSED TO BE THE BETTER ONE BUT THE TRUTH IS I’M NO BETTER THAN YOU