When I got your note, the little exploded plant fibers inside, in the muted camouflage of the vegetable kingdom and the smell of the swamp, but also of your Chanel face powder that you sold your employer’s books on the side for a month to buy, the yellowed blotches on the paper and the brown spot that framed a transparency, made a collage. The envelope sounded very old, like the dryness just before disintegrating, or the scratching wings of insects in trees, and there was a fragment of a yellow print obscuring your words which had been smudged by a fraction of an ounce of Chanel Mademoiselle. I tried to scrape together enough dust to fill a bowl or roll a minuscule cigarette. I thought perhaps that this was your intent.