i wanted to fight so i went to war i thought it was right to fight for my country but then i saw the torture i saw the misery the pain and the dead and i was wounded now i'm paralyzed all this has changed my point of view i shot enemies now i know they are humans i shot civilists now i know i'm a murderer i had time to think now i want to tell those young men who want to be soldiers who want to fight in a war for their country that i've seen it that i'm a victim of war and that i don't want them to do the same mistake every time i close my eyes i can hear the screams i can see the dead and the fire i don't want them to see the things i saw i want to tell them they needn't to be soldiers to be men and i've learned that love and forgiveness is better than hate and war but now those people who sent me to their war forbid me to speak about the love about the pleasure about the youth i've lost