I held a grip so tight I could never let you go But you were fading and I cannot let my apathetic self hold me back from who I'm meant to be I can't hold myself back This is not reality How did I fall in love with someone I barely knew Your true colours bled through and burned a hole deep inside my heart I felt it deep down I was nothing to anyone How does it feel living day to day without a spine Tell me now, you selfish lifeless man I'm past the point of feeling anything I was everything you ever wanted but nothing I wanted to be I wish I could set the clocks back and set myself free I am the martyr of my own destiny I want to be there the day your heart gives out So you can feel how I felt that day When I close my eyes, all I see is you That distant memory that I wish wasn't true But I turned around and I felt what it was to be alive I wish I could never be I tried so hard just to see what I'm meant to be I turned around and felt alive.