I don’t say much to anyone I’m always lost inside my vacant mind I imagine everything Strolling around with childlike innocence and ignorance I imagine everything And it weighs me down into myself
In my youth I could have conquered the world Been the light that’s lacked for years and personified endless love of life Bursting with inspiration Unafraid of conversation Naïve and blind to the cruelty of time Adolescence came and went And it changed the way I felt about everything: the world. Love. Life It left me speechless and I can’t go back So I don’t say a word
I’ve tried to curb my lonely life, but the sun don’t shine on endless night And sleep can’t keep me temperate I wonder where the time went And when all my words will spill out of my head, through my voice, to you
Come to me I will not speak Breathe for me Always in fear
I never mention all the words in my head I’m too inept so I just smile and nod instead But sometimes I don’t even manage that Honestly Fuck
To all my friends: I’m sorry I never knew that I could be this haunted Screaming in these rooms just have my voice heard I guess I’m just another awkward kid On the cusp of potential I’ll never reach I’ve tried to change, but I’ll always be this way Honestly