being let down does not mean you have to be broken down. i've seen so much and yet have not found what i've been looking for. maybe i am asking way too much, that's why my expectations never met. i still am trying too see the color of these grey days that are passing by so fast that i've never realized i am not the part of young generation anymore, because it feels like just yesterday i've been free of everything that has weighted me down for the last decade.
and yet i never gave up on my dreams, i still am trying to move towards them, slowly but surely. i don't care if my journey will end in the middle of the way and i will never see what i've been looking for, this won't stop me from trying. cause it gives me purpuse, it gives my life meaning.
and all the numbers i've considered lucky are now laying covered in dust, how did they get left behind and i'm still standing if their advice led me through the hardest obstacles on my path. i don't even know if there is an answer but i still hope this fire will burn once again, lighting up the way to everything i've missed.
i don't want to pull anyone with me, i know everyone has diffrent way to go, but drifting along with those who mean something to me would be much more comforting than reaching my goal alone, because whole point of this journey is not the trophy that is waiting me in the end, there is no trophy anyway, i just want to spend the time i have doing something that would make everyone around me at least a bit happier.