??m just fucked, Arlene. I don ??t have any guts...
Her father was a logger and he was always out of work. Her mother hardly said a nice word, ever. Then the girl got pregnant by a kid she knew, and she waited a long time before she told him. But they got married anyway, even though she didn ??t want to. They lived in a trailer home that was way out and alone. Then the kid, who was also a logger, got his leg crushed by a falling tree. He hardly ever worked after that. And the girl, she miscarried in the eighth month and that ??s really late and hard. And after that the kid just quit talking to her. She got a job in an auto parts store. All the guys there kept hitting on her and bothering her ??cause they all knew her husband and they didn ??t like him. This is up near Clatskanie, which is in the mid- dle of nowhere. After work she ??d take long walks by herself on the logging roads. And each night she ??d go home and make dinner for the kid and then she ??d watch TV with him. And no one knew how it was for the girl. Then finally one day the girl disappeared. For a while it was in the papers and on the radio, but no one ever saw her again. No one ever knew what hap- pened, not even the police, who were sure it was the kid but could never pin it on him. That ??s all I got so far, Arlene.