Verse 1 I’m kind of scared of the academy I think that my parents are proud of me I just wish I knew how to be comfortable here -- I never feel like I’m allowed to breathe Rubbing shoulders with these old nerds Rockin’ sweater vests in they office hours Eatin’ hors d'œuvres while I soul search Tryna make some sense of the ivory tower Feelin sober Am I just a coward? Or a poser? I don’t really doubt it Or a soldier? Books in holsters But the setting sucks I can’t fight the power Cuz they write books nobody reads For these white folks that they tryna please Recycle all the right quotes tryna cite blokes ain’t my cup of tea Eatin’ chex mix Feelin’ helpless I really miss my fuckin’ ex it’s Such mindfuck Cuz we never talk Yet we still share a fuckin' Netflix And every day I apologize To the poor kid that we never had The emotion of the whole thing Make me so sick It’s fucking sad What you don’t get is how focused That I had to be cuz you couldn’t provide Mad at me cuz I’m losing my mind Had to leave at a terrible time Prednisone -- I can barely breathe Now the pressure gone but I barely sleep So I ring your phone but you don’t respond Had to put myself in some therapy Now my Therapist she take care of me Like Sierra mist things are clear to see Now I’m seeing the world in 1080p x2
Chorus: Voicemail Message
Verse 2 Been a few months since the last verse Since I called you bad words I went ahead and got my masters I trimmed the last of my relaxer So my fro big Got some mo' gigs My cell phone says I’m roaming Cuz I’m on tour I want more Forget home so I go big I was taking pills up in the bathroom --- ended up alone in grad school I’m Mario I busted ass but My prize is sitting in another castle In a tight spot trying to disappear I would write songs for my friends to hear ----I’m tryna keep my lights on I’m a Nikon now it’s crystal clear Opportunity is at my doorstep So I’m moving back up on the horse like It’s the first time I ever wore specks Now I do my thing like life’s a Rorschach I see things nobody sees Since my bee stings turned to double ds I’m conceding That my feelings Is amazing Now I’m lovin’ me! I could give it up where’s the fun in that? Gotta live it up or you will never laugh Life’s a box of chocolates with a lot of options Gotta keep it rocking life’s a rumble pack The first letter of your first name Makes your name emerge when I search things And it hurts me but I guarantee That without you I’m a better me Now I see the past with some clarity Glad I took my ass to some therapy Now I’m seeing the world in 1080p x2