i do not like the feeling of being shaken i do not like the feeling of my brain banging against the walls of my skull heart flattened in the pit of my stomach i do not like you i do not like you because you are a steel tectonic plate you are disaster and there is nothing natural about you i do not like you because your laugh is like feather stems forced through my temples i do not like the feeling of falling ten stories my organs escaping out through my mouth i do not like the feeling of weightlessness i am not in the business of taking bullets so i do not like the feeling of desperation begging to hear gunfire because you would not forget me then i do not like the feeling of hollow wrists fastened to strings, marionette raising the crushed velvet curtain discovering silhouettes whispering like wind chimes depicting all the times i could have told you something i am feeling something i do not like the feeling of look at me i do not like the feeling of almost of almost beds and almost nights that you would remember as belonging to me the nights i won the nights i was running from you just so i could feel your labored breaths on the back of my neck of almost eye locks, i’ll shove a key through your socket i’ll crush you i’ll stuff you inside of a locket i do not like the feeling of irrelevance i do not like the feeling of smarter than me of better than me i do not like the feeling of no longer queen i do not like the feeling of dreams where i’m stood from a height and you are the breeze i swear to god i heard you hiss i do not like the feeling of being rattled snake jaw snapped open i’ll swallow you whole i do not like you i do not like how your body next to mine feels like a death sentence killed by cutting clauses too accidentally tender i do not like the feeling of you in the same way i do not like the feeling of drunk swimming in head scorch throat red but that doesn’t stop me i do not like the feeling of you i do not like the feeling of bones bending to fit your shape creaking music of decay you are eating away at my flesh parasitic picture of perfection i do not like the feeling of words trapped in my chest lungs sticky with smoke and regret, second guess i do not like the feeling of you