it’s my swim upstream dream to breath deep and feel reality you wash over me like i’m filled with amphetamines oh my god is this it you never think you’re gonna go like this death from lip bites and fits swallowing your tongue until you call it quits
but i don’t mind it grows warm in a way like a cool pool of water on an ever cooler day and it’s nice to sit and think in no i don’t mind i don’t want to fuss please don’t move the moon for me i don’t mean that much i’m not even much fun at parties
dont like when you look at me that way i'm never sure what to say my feet won’t let me run away i know i’m just a boring cliche i’m not sure how it’s done repeating words in my head like i’m reloading a gun can’t think which step comes after one stuck at the start disguise undone
but i don’t mind i just might stay at home it’s quiet there i think i’m better off alone because i can go to sleep when i want to no i don’t mind can’t apologize again i’m neck deep in my mistakes so i’ll just drop by when i’m ready but i’m never ready
i want to keep up but your strides are too fast and far and strong lately i’ve been struggling to feel like i really belong
but i don’t mind it grows warm in a way like a cool pool of water on an ever cooler day and it’s nice to sit and think in no i don’t mind i don’t want to fuss please don’t move the moon for me i don’t mean that much i’m not even that much fun
oh no it’s fine i’m just going insane i’ve got a black hole for a heart and bullet for a brain how did i end up here
see it’s okay because in the end the ground will swallow us anyway with all of our friends and i won’t feel so different anymore