I'M THE SUN! I'M THE SUN! PLEASE GOD BELIEVE ME I CAN'T FIND THE TIME TO DO IT! I NEED TO PASS THE RESPONSIBILITY! I'M THE MOON! I'M THE MOON! FALL ASLEEP ON MY CHEST! CARVE INTO CRESCENTS, I'LL BE MORE BEAUTIFUL I SWEAR! I'LL FORCE IT IF NEED BE! I'LL FORCE AN INCOMPLETE! I DON'T BELIEVE IN FINAL DRAFTS! JUST LIKE YOU DONT BELIEVE IN ME! I'M THE SKY! I'M THE SKY! I WANNA DIE I WANNA DIE I'M THE MORNING, WHILE PITCH BLACK AND I'M IN LOVE!
All I ever wanted was good coffee and good cigarettes playing acoustic songs with friends in a bedroom, a basement or a couch on a front porch
I've been having these fantasies of me, playing a Fender screaming words I wrote earlier at another kid who's mad at life and pissed off at his government
but instead i'm sleeping for fifteen hours I can't find it in myself to take a goddamn Prozac I feel these callouses scratching at my face As i think of how I could make these words paint a picture
Some days I feel like a thief When my friends all think so high of me I had a smarter man than me say get used to letting them down And then he smiled and so did I, Cuz I knew the likes
Some days I feel just like a martyr A throne made of tears shed for mischievous daughters Who lived their nights in fear, one in the same with my type They weren't anything special, I know the fucking likes
I can puke my stomach inside out on the road I can follow your orders, make secrets my own I can eat all I can till there's none left to take None to hand out to those watched me steal from their plates
I'm already damned downward I know this much true Cuz I bled from sweaty finger tips and yelled out my fuck you's Till all I knew was anger, void dishonesty And I may know the likes but the the likes don't know me And I may know the likes but the likes don't like me
I can sleep fourteen hours Wake up, dream to die Eat, shower, repent, find my bed again, I Knew just what I could make of my life when I found It was bleaker than black, Horse shit found on the ground
I'm not made up of much more than books on a shelf Ones I hadn't touched in years Like they'd touched me themselves I'm no good at innuendo No good at a lot Not even playing guitar All I know is to rot
All I know is to write All I know is to bleed All I know is to let down Everyone who built me All I know is to fake it till the finally believe I won't die much too young, but shit I'll fucking dream I won't die much too young, but fuck please let me dream